Thoughts form a Mommy's head

Wow, this past year has been nuts. It is 2 days till thanksgiving and I am so on the fence about what to do. I don't verbally share my feeling with people because it is hard to get them out sometimes and I find it easier to just write them down and go from there. Sometimes I may ramble and bounce from one subject to the next, sorry in advance if that bugs you, but it is my blog and I can't help where my mind wonders.
As I was saying thanksgiving is 2 days away and I don't know what I want to do about it. This is the first time in 25 years that I can remember that we are not having a big family dinner, but given what happened this year it's not a surprise. After loosing Grandma, and Papa is in Texas for the holiday. It just doesn't feel like a holiday. Part of me wants to make my family a big thanksgiving dinner, and have one for just the 3 of us here, but the other part is having a hard time with the idea of cooking some of the dishes that we have had for years, because they were dishes Grandma made and I can't bear the thought of making them with out her. Maybe that's why Pie crust is so hard, because she always made it and it was the best and I will never be able to make it as good as her. Some dishes I love so much, but just the thought of trying to make them is upsetting. Sage dressing, Always on our holiday table was her favorite dish, it sounds so good, but seems so hard to bring myself to make (it's a very easy recipe). But it just doesn't feel right, without her. Cooking is when I miss her most, I loved being in the kitchen with her and helping peel potatoes, and chop and wash vegetables she needed, even cleaning, anything to help, I liked getting to her house early on holidays and being in the kitchen with her and now it's over. Part of me wants to start a new tradition with my family, but sometimes it is hard since it means letting go of the past and what we are comfortable with. Also this year it is hard to be very thankful with the bad things that happened, I know we all have reasons to be thankful, and Patrick is a wonderful reason to be thankful, but it is still hard. His birth is going to be bittersweet, because I won't be able to share it with her and her to see him. I will be happy to have him, but it will be bittersweet. As is most things right now.
I know that one day it will become easier to move on and start new family traditions, it just feels too soon now. Honestly if we didn't have children I would scrap all the holidays this year and wait till next year to try, but with a 2 almost 3 year old, Santa can't take a break because mommy is sad. It's funny, how things work out sometimes. This is the first year that I have all Andrew's Christmas stuff before December 1st. most of it is wrapped and in my closet waiting for Christmas, why? because it was something to take my mind off things.
I still don't know what I plan to do for thanksgiving, Kevin said maybe we should just put the money we would have spent on dinner and have a welcome home Patrick party after he is born. Maybe he's right, cooking at 39 weeks pregnant, doesn't sound fun and honestly I don't think I'd want to even if I were not. One year isn't going to do anything, I have to do Christmas, but thanksgiving is easy to let slide, and I think I will.   

It's pouring outside right now. It feels gross, I have no idea what I plan to make for dinner tonight, maybe hamburger helper, something easy. I have a few projects around the house that need to be done, It just means getting my butt up and doing them instead of sitting here talking to you. So here is my list of things that need to be done and when I check back they should all be done. 

1. Finish laundry
2. Finish folding diapers
3. Finish sewing Patrick's Pocket Diapers
4. Cut out a Cloth cover for Andrew and try sewing it
5. Move the wine rack to kitchen
6. Clean off shelf in dinning room
7. Clean off bar
8. Finish Cleaning Master Bathroom
9. Empty Crib of stuffed Animals
10. Do Dishes
11. Clean Fridge
12. Clean off book cases
13. Repack for Hospital (I thing i have too much!)
14. Clean extra kitchen cabinet
15. Finish wrapping Christmas Gifts for Andrew

So I know it look's like a ton, but they are all small tasks. We'll see you back here once I am finished with my work.

Sarah

Meet the Krajewski's

This first post is to introduce you to us. (for those of you who don't know us.)

I am the mommy Sarah; I just turned 25 this year, I am a stay at home mom! I am enjoying my new post, and love to spend time taking care of our children and home. I have many hobbies that I like doing which helps pass the time when housework is done and Andrew want's to play alone. They are Sewing, Knitting, Crocheting, Painting, Cross-stitch, Quilting, Embroidery, Writing. Not to mention several more things I'd love to try if I had the time. I am starting to get more in to cooking, I always have enjoyed cooking, but while working it was more quick meals and now I have time to make a full dinner like I grew up with. I have also started to try my hand at baking... Bread is going well and soon I hope to make my way through pie crust. I am on a mission to organize my home and make it look amazing for the few months we have here. Once our lease is up we will be moving so I am packing up stuff we won't use till after the move and getting rid of stuff we are never going to use again. I don't want a cluttered life or house anymore.

Kevin is the daddy; He also turned 25 this year. He is our bread winner, He works for a major corporation in Wilsonville, and has a second job for most of the year that is a 2 man company it is also based in Wilsonville. He is an amazing father and really loves to get on the floor and play with Andrew, he helps out around the house, but I have to admit since I came home there hasn't been much for him to do around the house. This year he traded his motorcycle and my ford explorer for a new car since our old one was dyeing. He works very hard for his family and is proud that he can provide for us. It must be hard sometimes since we are almost a family of 4 living on a 1 1/2 incomes, but we manage. He plays guitar, and bass (use to in a band, but those days are over) he still has a friend who he hangs out with once in a while to play. He likes to play video games and that has been something the whole family can enjoy together since Andrew is getting interested and loves to watch "daddy play gamecube!" He works the early shift so he is home by 3:00pm which is nice because it gives us family time to spend together before Andrew's bedtime and dinner, but during the busy season he won't be home till after the sun sets and so that will be a change then. (but there is still a good month or two before that.)

Andrew is our firstborn; He just turned 2 this year, and boy is he a ball of energy. He is jumping on the couch with a firetruck as I type this. He just moved in to his toddler bed in July and we have been working on potty training since February, not as easy as it sounds. He is very excited about being a big brother, and loves to talk about the baby and help get stuff ready for his new brother. He loves spider man, toy story, spongebob, hotwheels, playing music, singing, and just being a boy. His talking has improved so much in the past few months and now he can hold a conversation with you about things. It is so funny some of the things he says... Makes you wonder what's going on in his little head.

Patrick; EDD 12/01/2011 What can I say about our unborn child. I love him very much and am very excited to have him here with us. There are 9 more days as I type this, but I would love it if he decided to come sooner... as long as he is healthy. He kicks, gets hiccups, he stretches and is very strong. As painful and tired as he makes me I wouldn't change it for the world. I love that I am the one to carry him 9 months and provide for him what no one else can.You'll have to check back to see when he is finally here with us.

What more can I say about our family, We love each other very much and are doing the best we can. This blog is about us and the things we are going through. Sometimes it will be very happy, and sometimes it will be very sad, and sometimes life may just slowdown and give us a minute to stop and smell the roses.

We are inviting you with us on our journey through the next season of our lives.


Here's to change, the good, the bad, and the ugly.

Sarah